I still can’t help but smile whenever I remember our little moments (like that time when we couldn’t breathe because we were laughing so hard at my weird storytelling skills or when we used poke fun at how awkward we were before we became close friends). A few seconds in to those kinds of memories though, I remember how we got here and the only thing I could do is yell out a frustrated WHATEVER and try to think about other things.
I can’t even look you in the eye anymore.
For the past year, Thought Catalog has published numerous pieces that always hit the right spot in my heart. Here are my five favorite heartbreak related Thought Catalog articles (well, the ones I’ve bookmarked) that have either made me scream out expletives (as in, Fuck who are you and how do you know how I feel) or go to bed early, reflecting on what I should’ve done in my life.
I’m Still Not Ready To See You
MAR. 9, 2012 By MILA JARONIEC
It’s going to be hard because even though I don’t miss you, I still kind of do. But I don’t know why, I’ve checked with myself and I don’t want you back.
You love me differently just like I love you differently and people change and move on and blah blah, but why is this sort of distant love the hardest thing to handle? How do people handle this? Do they?
Upon Realizing You No Longer Love Your Ex
NOV. 1, 2011 By MILA JARONIEC
You briefly think about them kissing whoever took your place, bracing yourself for the instant tightening in your chest. And… nothing. You continue to find yourself completely and deliciously blank.
You’re Going To Break My Heart
NOV. 3, 2011 By RYAN O’CONNELL
You pull all the tricks you got out of your little hat. “Will this make you love me? Will this make you love me? What about THIS?”
Why You Can’t Make Your Ex Fall In Love With You Again
FEB. 27, 2012 By RYAN O’CONNELL
You learn a lot about people and their ability to disengage when you get your heartbroken. But I would venture to say that you learn even more when you break someone else’s heart. That’s when it all becomes clear and you’re finally able to get over that one person who stopped loving you. Because now you know the secret. Now you know how random it all is. It’s a scary truth to realize. It’s a much easier pill to swallow when there are concrete reasons why the love stopped — it makes people seem less scary and more rational — but sometimes love is just as irrational as a loss of love. Things stop just because.
The Various Degrees Of Being “Over” Your Ex
FEB. 29, 2012 By JOHANNA DE SILENTIO
When you feel a subtle sense of longing as you drive past their house. Unless the person totally ruined your life and you’ve had some sort of psychotic break where you’ve blocked their memory altogether, anybody’s bound to feel a bit of nostalgia every so often. This doesn’t mean you’re not over it, it means you’re a human being. If you don’t feel pressure to throw things or burst into tears or call the person, you’re probably legit over it.
Redg vs. The Machine 